After Awhile..

After a while

you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't always promises

and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn

with every good-bye you learn

It's been a bit since my last post. How am I? I'm good. I had a moment today, which then reminded me that I have a blog.

I have been sick. It isn't very fun. I got a cold from work I suppose, and then enjoyed a couple days of fun - bowling and free concerts - only to wake up the day before returning to work feeling like death. I stayed all day on the couch, half watching tv/movies half sleeping.

Yesterday I enjoyed watching an Olympic hockey game from private box seats courtesy of my work. It was incredible, and I wish I could have stayed til the end of the game, but unfortunately some people are on schedules that can not be changed, ie my client.

Today is beautiful and sunny and I am going to enjoy it! You should too.